Welcome to week 1 of Monica Wants Fit where I chronicle my journey to fit and healthy every Monday. The good, the bad, the ugly…and the occasional donut.
I feel like I’ve been catfishing you all. All my lovely headshot photos on social media are from 2009, which is consequently the last time I felt I looked good in a photo. (With the exception of a cute selfie or 2 from my Vegas trip in December 2013):
^^ Me 20 pounds ago!
I didn’t write about weight loss in 2014 for a good reason—there wasn’t any!
Here’s a rundown of 2014 in the life of Monica’s weight loss journey:
- I gained about 24 pounds, putting me at my heaviest weight ever and up over 100 pounds since my wedding day in May 2009.
- I flew 3 times and felt uncomfortable every. single. time.
- I was/am afraid to go on vacation to a theme park because I’m afraid I won’t fit into the rides.
- I went up a pant/dress size.
- I was exhausted just literally standing on my feet for a few hours at a work event to the point of tears.
- I had zero energy, felt introverted, depressed, angry, bitter.
- I have INSANE new stretch marks on my upper arms, around my armpit area, and the sides of my stomach on top of all the OLD stretch marks. I will likely never be able to wear sleeveless tops or a bikini. This hurts my heart.
- I couldn’t squat down without awful knee pain.
- I drank almost no water daily.
- I ate out 3-5 times a week, if not more.
- I drank alcohol almost daily.
- I vehemently avoided taking photos, giving presentations, shopping, and looking at myself in the mirror.
I figured I’d be real with you all. That up there is a list that would land me an early death.
I’ve been spending a lot of time on Instagram lately and have come across some of the most inspirational before and after weight loss accounts, as well as the accounts of other people in the midst of their journey. That’s when a light bulb went off for me—I don’t have to watch other people accomplish things…I can do it, too. I’ve started and stopped this journey a hundred times before, but I just feel like this might be the time it sticks. I’ve reached a point where I have to do something. It’s bad when you start googling to learn about weight loss surgery. I do not judge anyone who has had weight loss surgery, but I don’t want that for me.
When I’ve done this before, I go CRAZY hardcore for about a month, lose steam, quit. This time, I’m not putting myself on a super low cal diet, I’m not forbidding anything (although I am cutting down on bread/processed sugar a lot), and I’m aiming to workout 5 days a week for at least 40 minutes. My workouts are 3 days of lifting heavy + 2 days of cardio. I’m tracking everything on My Fitness Pal (friend me by clicking here) and chronicling my journey/DIY adventures over on Instagram.
Week 1 for me ended on Friday, January 2, and I lost 4.2 pounds! Yay! I know that sort of weight loss won’t happen each week since it’s a lot of water weight, but I’ll take it for now. My weigh-ins are every Friday morning. I’m also trying to mentally tell myself that the scale isn’t THAT important, so I’ll take measurements at the first of every month.
My challenges this week:
- Going back to work after 18 days off.
- Drinking enough water. I’ll do great one day and then slack the next. Consistency is key!
- Hitting my macros—my carbs are high, so I need to add in more lean protein.
If you have any tips or suggestions or questions, please leave them in the comments section. And if you believe in prayer or good juju, please pray that I have the strength to finish this journey for once and for all.